making gratefulness a habit | fyu #4

Thursday, February 1, 2018


Greetings from the outdoor seating area of Muir Woods Coffeehouse, otherwise affectionately known as M.O.M. (Middle Of Muir)! Since my classes are mostly in Muir College this quarter, I’ve found myself more frequently joining the legions of students who take advantage of its fluffy sofas, comfy wicker chairs, and productive coffee shop vibe. Yesterday I spent two hours holed up at one of the tables, banging out my Spanish homework while nursing one of their specialty drinks--a Polar Bear, which is a white mocha swirled with caramel and peanut butter. (Another thing: I’ve discovered that UCSD has at least six different coffee shops around campus. It’s dangerous.)


Ordinarily, at this time on a Thursday afternoon, I’d be in the Professional Communication Seminar I signed up for at the beginning of the year, but today I didn’t go, for a few reasons. The first is that I didn’t understand my linguistics homework, and the only optional linguistics discussion section I could attend was at the same time as the seminar. Once I understood the concept, I left section early so I could sit down and write this blog post.

The second reason is that I’m giving myself a break. Truth be told, I haven’t had a day to just relax in a while, and I feel like I need to catch my breath. Midterm szn is upon us (I took a Spanish midterm this morning), and I’ve got more exams coming up within the next few days that I have to study for.

Despite this, I’m not stressed. My mood moves up and down constantly, but the truth is that, right now, I’m kinda in love with life.

Maybe it’s the glorious weather. Maybe it’s the fact that I think I’ve hit the sweet spot between being social and not letting my identity be defined by other people. Maybe it’s because I got my vlog up on time this week and actually went to bed at a reasonable hour on Tuesday night. I’ve spent the past few mornings in a funk, but today I woke up, finished my midterm early, wrote five hundred words of my manuscript (you can track my progress on it here), drank an #aesthetic caramel macchiato, and am now here, writing.

Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve realized that if my biggest worry is getting my linguistics homework done on time, my life is GOOD. There is literally no reason for me to complain. Or, as a matter of fact, I really haven’t had a legit reason to complain, like, ever.

I’m going to a great school with probably the best weather in the world. I’m ten minutes away from the beach. I get to eat good food every day, and, even though sometimes my body dysmorphia tells me otherwise, I’m healthy. I get to study what I love. I get to hang out with lots of cool people.

This is literally not anything I’ve done for myself. It’s all by God’s grace. And I’ve wondered many times why He’s blessed me so much--I don’t know--but nothing of it is by my own volition or merit. All I can do is a) be thankful, b) work hard, and c) give Him the glory. Cuz none of this is me. Honest.

It’s easy to be grateful when things are going well, and, admittedly, life is fantastic. (*knocks on wood*) But my goal is not only to be thankful for the now, but to cultivate a general attitude of thankfulness, so that when life, inevitably, goes south, I’ve made a habit of praising Him in everything.

3 comments

  1. It's funny thinking it's midterm season for some people already when it's only the second week of classes for me!

    Now I really want a coffee drink XD

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  2. You're so busy!

    And yes, we do need to often be thankful of our blessings and opportunities.

    Good luck with exams.

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