HOT POST-GRADUATION MESS

Monday, June 19, 2017


My cap and gown are still sprawled on my bedroom floor. My grandma bought me flowers, but they’re wilting in a jar next to my bed, dry petals scattered. It’s one-twenty-two a.m. and I’m hungry, but guilt jostles the Panda Express, chocolate cake, and ribs that my stomach is currently digesting. I haven’t gone to the gym in two weeks.

Somehow I think I expected the fact that I’m a high school graduate to change who I am as a person, but--surprise--I’m still the same lazily motivated, messily organized girl that I am. A new week is beginning, and I have to piece together a new routine for myself. For the past four years, it’s been wake up before seven, throw on some clothes, go to school, do homework, go to bed. Now there isn’t the least resemblance to that routine, and I have to figure out a new one. Come September, when I move to San Diego and start college, I’ll have to figure one out again.

Tomorrow I’ll probably wake up around nine. The stifling summer heat has already begun, and since my windows are open, the warmth will have already pervaded my bedroom by the time I rouse myself. I didn’t shower last night because I was too busy reading a cheesy teen romance novel, but I might go on a morning walk to clear my head. When I get home, I’ll probably procrastinate a bit more and tidy up a bit, wait for the graduation glow to dissipate, until the unsettling reality of finale, fin, finite sets in.

In the past, I’ve done recap posts and summer bucket list plans, but I don’t have the energy to do those anymore. I never follow my to-do lists anyway, and besides, I’ve learned the art of keeping things to myself. I’ll report them as I go.

In a week and a half, I leave for a missions trip to the Czech Republic, the second time I’ve made the trip and the first time traveling overseas without my family. There, I’ll help teach an English camp and spend a day in Prague, which is probably the most beautiful city I’ve ever visited. A week or two after that trip finishes, I’ll be at Zion National Park, and a couple weeks after that, possibly Northern California. Between the gaps, I’ll be writing both my book and this blog, hanging out with my friends, and trying out the camera I received as a graduation present from my parents. I know this summer will be full of failed projects and rainbowy aspirations and plenty of random things, but I’m thankful for what I’ll get and I’m excited to see what’s going to happen.


Onward!

13 comments

  1. Congrats on graduating and I hope you have a fun summer!

    Nabila | Hot Town Cool Girl

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  2. The way you portrayed life after graduation is just so artsy. Hopefully your Czech adventures (round two!) go well!

    xoxo Abigail Lennah | ups & downs

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    1. haha, thanks! and i'm praying they will too :)

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  3. Goodness I love your posts. Have the best time in Czech. I can't wait to hear all about your adventures. <3

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  4. I'm so happy for you! What will you be doing in Zion National Park? It's really cool you're getting to go to Czech again!! :)

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    1. my family will be hiking and doing other stuff like that! and yes, i'm so excited & thankful to be going to Czech again!

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  5. Congrats on graduating!! Hope you have an amazing trip :)

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  6. Wow you're life sounds pretty adventurous. I hope you have fun visiting all those places and I hope you're able to stay busy. Onward! :)

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  7. Good luck on your Missions trip and book!

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