the calm before the storm

Thursday, December 8, 2016

This week has been unusually quiet. I’ve been finishing my homework by dinnertime, which has given me time to...well, quite honestly, I’ve been pretty lazy. But next week--the last week before break--is going to be crazy, so I thought I’d take advantage of the extra time and write a blog post.
It feels like a brick has been weighing down my hands. I haven’t felt like writing at all. I’ve been trying to read, but nothing is absorbing my attention. I’ve been baking a lot, and eating a lot, and hardly exercising, because my leg still hurts. My driving has been getting crazier.

I feel like a bunch of threads that have been wound up and are unraveling and extending in different directions, faster than I can reel them back in and wind them in their proper spots. I hate feeling like I’m not exercising, I hate feeling uninspired, and I wish I could go back to the time when ideas came off the top of my head in a jiffy.

I’ve been doing more watercolors, and it’s peacefully creative--I put on my Melodic playlist (which has a lot of Colbie Caillat, Regina Spektor, and Sara Bareilles) and sketch and paint.
I just don’t feel like me, and it doesn’t feel okay.

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